I pray.

That you are comfortable, safe, and no longer afraid.

And for the peace which passeth all understanding.

For everyone you blessed with your presence. 

On our knees (where else could we be)

For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge--that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

-Ephesians 3:14-21

Numerology in a season of giving

You're dense and systematic

The vein along your index finger

Bulges and you raise your eyebrows

As you point your hand towards me.

Ok, here is the thing, (you know.)

You tap my shoulder expectantly

A little boy. Excitement. The breathe clings to the notes in your voice.

The thing is. This man tells me. This old man. This man that is here and now. See, that's the thing, he says.

Were you listening? 

why

ok.

I want to talk of the difficult things. to speak about the reasons we crack and crumble.

it isn't the good, or even the unknown.

it's the misunderstood. the obstacles we face that we don't understand.

and I want to ask you, all of you.

to understand me.

and this thing I am trying to do.

Because I don't, and I need your help.

No. I need your faith.

Faith, and all of the unknown that comes with it.